Katrina Burgoyne had mixed feelings as she farewelled Australia on Friday to head back to Nashville.
The musician came home to Gunnedah in December 2018 for the first time in almost two years and has been catching up with family and friends.
Burgoyne was also attempting to regain her health after suffering from ongoing sinus infections but was diagnosed with laryngitis, forcing her to cancel gigs during the Tamworth Country Music Festival. She battled through with the help of medication and hosted her first Gunnedah show, featuring local talent.
After the show wrapped up, Burgoyne sought out an ear, nose and throat doctor who gave her the much-needed good news that her vocal chords were not damaged causing her to leave "in tears".
As she packed her bags to leave her hometown this week, she reflected in her blog on facing the "bittersweet blade of a double-edged sword".
"I’ve been in a head space of not wanting to leave. I feel safe here," she wrote.
"Nashville is so so hard and I still feel burnt out from not being 100 per cent healthy. I have a sore throat and feel tired all the time.
"I honestly was beginning to think I didn’t want to go back to Nashville. I was scared and felt full and happy here. I’ve never wanted to be right where I am in my life. I’ve always been aiming for my next goal."
But a new love has given her the confidence to continue chasing her dreams in Nashville.
"As I pack my bags and get ready to take on this adventure all over again, I do it with refreshed eyes," she wrote.
"I feel so brave having someone stand beside me holding my hand through this now.
"Although my body still needs healing, I’m excited to see what I can build from a place of feeling safe and cared for.
"The only thing I regret is not being able to give my friends and family my all."